i was avoiding this post.

it’s my 100th post, and I have had no idea what I was going to write or do…should I write just another post? should i have a party over Skype and invite you all? should I end the blog here before I jump the shark?  I was stuck.

About 1 year ago last month, I made the decision to start writing this blog. I went through a million other names before deciding on eat your cake and count your chickens. I was worried people would think it was eat your cake and county our chickens. I wasn’t sure what to write about, or how to start. I had no idea what to expect – all I knew is I had learned, and was learning, some great things, and i wanted to share them. I just wanted to write down every concept I could think of that made me feel good, gave me hope, was inspiring, made me wonder, cry, and thrilled to get up in the morning. I wanted to share everything with anyone who would listen, but I really didn’t think anyone else than my family would read it!

I wrote about dark days and being lonely, more than once. I wrote about not feeling stuck, again and again and again. I wrote that you call the shots. I wrote that it was worth it to put in the work for something you wanted so bad, if you wanted it bad enough.

I wrote about starting today, and not procrastinating. That they will say no, that they will say yes!

I wrote about not taking yourself too seriously,  how you do anything is how you do everything, and how lucky you are. I wrote about changing. a LOT. I mean…a lot.

I also wrote about sadness, which, in full disclosure, is something I am feeling a lot of these days. It’s deep and real and hard to reconcile – I don’t write this for pity, but to tell you that I read back on my posts on this topic, and they actually did help.

And that’s what they are all written for – to help.

Let me just remind you guys that every post is written from my heart on something I need to hear or do. I am far from preaching, far from telling you what life is all about – I am merely parroting the wonderful things I hear and digest daily, from books and mentors, and doing my part by re-sending them out into the world, in the hopes that they will catch the ear of one of you perfect people, changing or sparking something that hasn’t been changed or sparked before.

i also want to admit to all of you a truth, which you most likely already know (and this is hard for me to write out)…

sometimes you can’t have it all.

You can’t always count those chicken eggs and have every single one of them hatch perfectly; you can’t preserve the beautiful birthday cake in its entirety if you dig your fork in for a bite – you just can’t. Every single decision requires trade-offs and compromise, loss and reality, downsides, perspective shifts, changes, risk, upheaval, and plenty more uncomfortable feelings and events. sometimes the upsides of a necessary decision will be elusive for a long time, and sometimes you will feel like you don’t have anything, let alone it all.

However! it is up to us, as positive, forward-thinking, loving, goal- and dream-filled eat-your-cakers to alter and adapt our all, to realize that it is ever-shifting, depending on circumstances. Sometimes (hopefully more often than not!), our all will be striving towards, and achieving, big dreams, with the sky as the limit, and enjoying every moment. sometimes our all will be looking up at beautiful skies when all we want to do is look at the sidewalk, and appreciating good talks over coffee with good friends when all we want to do is stay in bed. Sometimes our all will be taking risks and chances that we never thought possible for ourselves, even if the outcome is terrifying. Sometimes our all will be imperfect cakes and less chickens than we originally hoped for.

and it’s up to us to find the best in that. 🙂

things aren’t perfect, things can be hard, but we eat-your-cakers don’t focus on that part of it – we make it less hard and less imperfect by pushing through and finding our all in every day, every moment we are blessed enough to still be walking this Earth.

You know? 🙂

I know you know. because you are all awesome. I love you guys so much – the 28 of you, and your brilliant friends on Facebook, have made writing this thing a pleasure, and I can’t wait to continue in the upcoming year. I have lots of ideas and thoughts and changes and surprises in store, so get excited!!

kill it today 🙂

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8 responses to “i was avoiding this post.

  1. I am so glad I followed you…..to here, to now, to life beyond imagining, to life worth dreaming about. To a life worth living and a life worth putting into only the best ingredients!! Love you by the cupful! Love you by the spoonful! Love you because you are beautiful! XXO

  2. Four cliches I suspect are true:
    You can have it all but not at the same time.
    The only constant is change.
    Do the work.
    It will all be OK.

    Hang in there, lady! xoxo

  3. I always get a boost of joy and inspiration from reading these. Keep it up and know your loved, that you are enough and that you have time. Thanks for sharing the joy. Hope you truly take some in today yourself as you deserve it! xo

    • Stephanie, I am so appreciative of your reading this, and so grateful for the inspiration you bring to me every day with all of your creativity, tenacity, and smart ideas – I am so glad to know you, and for all these years! Loved, enough, and with time – that’s it 🙂

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